It's been quite a while.
I am not sure if you have been through this situation or not because it is really weird. have you been a situation when you know everything needed skill to start, but not exactly sure what to do with it. and you start feeling yourself useless and stuff? i think i know why it's happening but i'm not very sure on it. This experience is really awkward, because you know every skill, or you know how things work, but you are not doing anything out of it. I am working by my self and doing everything alone, without help of anyone. sometimes i feel like i need someone whom i can work with. well this does not happen very often, and very unlikely to happen, so i gotta be ready or train myself for this situation. i need to learn to do things by my self and without any help. I feel like i am wasting my time and money and everything. i always suffer from regret feelings, and defeated but full of confidence that i can do whatever i want at the same time. this is like "i know i ca...